- A HEART FULL OF PAIN, HEAD FULL OF STRESS - A HAND FULL OF ANGER, HELD IN MY CHEST -
++ about me ++ name:
JosH
FirsT LighT:
07-04-1988
BusinEss AddResS:z3n_cool@hotmail.com Wat i Du?:
FuN stuFF... SporTs... I loVe my guiTar.. MuziCk and MoviEe
ambition:
HistoRy makEr WorLD chanGEr
likes:
tries to... chillinG wiTh me Lovable FrenS.. yeah, u gUyS aRe lovaBle
dislikes:
flirts b@#$4 any one who polishes the apples.. LIARS! HYPOCRITES!
++ wishlist ++
PDA
digicAm
ElectriC guiTar + amplifiEr
Studied chinese in the afternoon.. O' levels the next day.. Concentrating alot on the zhao ju and I tink tian xie is hopeless le.. Tml got bbq at East Coast.. And i have to attend the extreme sports briefing for helpers.. cool.. get to see those ultra fit pple running trekking swimming at sentosa...
Emerge conference 2004 coming up on 1-3 june.. So many skol activities but i rather go for the conference than skol.. Went to watch TDAT again with Raj.. it's a real cool show.. you guys should go catch it.. the human drama was above average and somehow i feel hopeful in face of difficult circumstances after the show...
Thankz Dan.. Though u prob wont see it, but u help me a lot in the translation.. I really liked the song... Saw Hui kinda intro it to me the week b4, but i heard of it already.. think Ming Long is so into the band, the 2 guys and 1 gurl combo seems to always work... ok.. gtg.. next time..
Was kinda busy the 2 days after skol cuz there was a meeting involving the upcoming YLDP camp.. for more info, u guys can approach me or JH..
Got like so many bites over my legs and hands... Darn mosquitoes.. And my sis is in Genting.. So good, have holis, but anywayz she has already grad from SP..
Went to watch TDAT today.. Andy was late.. As soon as he came in, he did his best 'stunt' to date... It was sooo hilarious.. to avoid embarassing him publicly, go ask him... Muahahaha...
Raj is sick.. Hope he gets well soon.. Cuz I'm doing his job but the teachers still need forms tml.. Alan Yeong gave that stupid laughter when I told him Raj was sick.. Then I said yaya and he walked away.. Muahaha...
Gotta go for PTC tml.. Actually no need to go one, but Yoonos wana see my parents.. @#!@#$... He came in today, and I started questioning him.. He was stunned and looked at me for a couple of secs.. then he ask why? the look on his face was priceless... xP make me come back to school...
toot*.. Wat The @!#$@!!! Everything I typed gone.. Sigh..
Highlights: Guitar Assesment.. Nothing much.. I dun wana live a mediocre life!!!
I'm right now sick, tired, and there are so many bad things happening to me.. How to face the situation? When I find out, I'll tell ya..
Had lunch with Raj and Co. + Nutzi. Mac, Sick.. Sianz.. The worst Exams ever.. Dun even noe wat typing me now.. ddas sefg ervfa rawda eerd ewdahi eivmc owlvl of orwab oemcbp sdffaa..
Yesterday: Went to book BBQ pit for Cg.. had to go all the way to East Coast.. So troublesome.. Haha.. good thing I ask JY to come. Sometimes feel very bad.. kp on askin him to come out.. like forcing him.. but he also very lazy one arz.. then i forced him to eat Jap with me b4 going for prayer meeting
Today got Emerald house meeting.. so many Seos nv turn up.. some chabot skol and some ran away after dismissal.. haiz.. even the Sseos attendance also quite bad.. in the end Jun had to cut short the meeting.. But then Alfonso came.. long time nv come liao.. Muz kp coming lehz, got so many things to do.. somemore the Seo OIC.. Wah.. tt bleedy Raj, yesterday ran away from skol while I was slpin in class.. wat kinda buddy, nv even ask me.. haha.. then today nv come.. HEY! got intensive revision le! Nv come wana fail?? Oh ya, my chinese got improve le.. but still fail... Nvm.. 'o' lvls can du better one.. Andy another one.. Play game only.. tml Eng post-motem.. hmm, hope I get good results for paper 1 since it's taufiq marking..
To all hardworking leaders, activities have resumed, take care of ur health, if not u wana go also cannot go xP
Alright, tts all.. tatas.. Anyway everybody coming online again.. still got MT paper woah..
Last paper today was combined science paper 1.. Then we boys went to the basketball court and played soccer.. Good thing Muthu man nv catch us.. Did I mention? I was late yesterday and had to report to him.. It was all becuz of the bus.. And Anbar had the sense to let us go becuz it was a legitimate excuse...
Had SSEO meeting today.. Bout Sec 3 leadership camp coming up.. The last one had oni 50+ participants while the one coming up will have up to 240.. Do a good job and make Uma and I proud, Jun Hao and team.. Anywayz, last yr me good fren Mao was the OIC and I was the 2IC, at that time I was still a bumbling fool, always cutting into Mao's way and in the end everyone wrote theri 'opinion' of me.. but nbm, I'm open to critisim, but not slanderous lies..
Hope this time it will be fun, cuz got so many things like Amazing Race and BBQ in the camp, not JUST lectures..
It's getting hotter and hotter.. Sigh* Drink lotsa water peeps.. Tk cr
Hmmmz.. Went to slp real late and woke up early.. ard 4 hrs of slp.. I kinda miss this kinda hours.. really cool.. I still remember the camps.. sometimes we dun even slp till like 5 and wake up at 6 and continue our physical activities.. Tiring but fun..
Had guitar lesson today.. Bought a new pack of strings but toot*.. while I was restringing my guitar, the first string broke! new one.. and lesson was like in an hr.. then had to go suntec buy, but reach there le then dun have.. thankfully Daryl helped me get one.. It's new but old.. A lil rusty but it'll do.. too tired to restring E,A,D.. hmm.. Evaluation coming up.. God, help me...
Went to KFC for dinner after tt.. Thankz Maoz, for accompanying me.. He was trying to gay with me guitar.. lolX.. 'I wana hold!, so cool' and he wants to learnt it so he can play for the gurl.. Anyway we walked to Popular then sembawang music centre.. Finally bought 'Rise Of Hitler'. Muahahah.. cudn get the DVD though.. And anywayz, I juz saw the first CD, 2 more to go.. kinda nice..
Mao: First impression = GAY FREAK!!! haha xP why? Cuz he was taller, more macho BUT with a GAYISH VOICE.. how cud I forget? the Ai Tong boy who always holds his head up.. My first sec skol fren.. And the first favor he ask from me on the second day was 'can lent me 50cents buy drink?' Wahahaha... then everytime in class hear a slapping sound means I juz bullied him.. can bluff him easily one lorz.. juz say u testing whether he is hot-tempered then he will say 'aiyah.. I dun hit pple one'.. Everytime go late night movie no one go then can call him.. 90% chance he will say yes if u force him.. and then we go eat our fav supper -> mee pok.. . Lolx.. then now diff class liaoz, tok less.. but still easy to bully..
He is a very nice guy, tolerable.. hehe.. idiot.. when I walk he always cuts into my path.. No sense of direction? then he will listen to your probs and try his best to help out with his 'experience'.. eh mao... how come I got so lil good things to say bout u? anyway, i tink he makes a good guy.. and his speech capabilities improved alot le.. last time always spit at me when he toks, now at least he speaks basic english..
lolX.. sounds like testimonial, yeah; friendster kinda useless.. GO MAO MAO, when u walk, dun fall into the drain.. alright.. haven study for exams tml.. Quack!
Checked my calendar.. 6 weeks more.. wat wud it be finally? Do I or Do I not?
Friday was fun. NE test turned out to be a game. lolX. We hada see who cud ans the most no. of questions involving our nation. I got 546000 on the first try. BUT I NEVER SAVE IT. darn. SAME thing for the next 3 games. I had to do it a 5th time to get it right and I got oni 444000... anywayz after the quiz something childish happened, but you reap wat you sow. So watever. Cant be bothered.
Juz came back from a mini Troy excursion. lolX. Walked from Lido down to Cineleisure to PS and all the Troy shows were packed. Darn. Tts all I have to say.
Let me tell you guys something about frenship.. first of all, who really are ur frens? whu really comes to u when u need help, connects to ur soul and understands ur problems? or are ur frens simply people u met and have a relationship with?
for me the definition is clear.. I noe who my frens are and I will stand up for them even if I get all the shit.. u understand? why? becuz they are the pple closest to my heart.. we may not tok everyday but the instant we du, it'll be the best time in the day. I see lotsa 'frens' who have come and gone, only true one remains. How can u be sure ur fren will remain true to u? If u value the frenship u gotta show it by supporting yur fren even if he/she is in trouble, did something wrong. I tell ya I'm tokin bout Sharon. Yes. Does anyone really understand wat she is tinkin other than herself? She may no doubt have done wrong in ur eyes but she is a human after all.
I'm thoroughly dissappointed in some of my frens who think they noe all. Then I suppose they never let anyone down before? So they are the best frens to have? In tt case why du I feel otherwise. As I have said, let he who has never broken a promise criticise her. Accept her for hu she is not wat she did.. If u can't, u dun deserve to be her fren. And if I'm gona get shit for defending her, so be it!
Anyway Hafiz, I tried tokin to u politely since last yr, and u nv listen, even in NCC, so dun blame me for pulllin rankz. If u had understand u wudn be in such a state. Sharon has indeed let you down, but she tried explaning. Nevertheless, tts all tt I know, I shan't comment further.
P.S. I wrote this in a haste, so if it's a harsh tone, well, I'm juz being honest and impatient.
I leave u with this words. Courage is exemplified by the willingness to walk away even if u prefered to fight, and the bravery to stand and fight when u wud have prefered running.
Exams today: Physics and DT.. I just downed the remainders of yesterdays pepsi.. man, the heat is killin me.. uh... thankfully yesterday I had the TYS for physics, else i fail le.. I lost physics text again! gr8.. O lvls no text.. cool huh.. DT sux competely.. lamest thing ever. After exams, I was asked to see MAM TAI.. Darn.. Eng paper 2.. I saw my marks.. BIG BIG dissapointment.. 28.5/50 and I was hoping for an A.. Cant even get a B.. BAD SIGN.. I cud ony grin sheepishly as I realise all my silly mistake.. And her shrill laughter echoed thruout the entire HOD room.. SHE WAS LAUGHING AT ME!!!
Sakura for lunch.. my fav beef kway tiao and chicken tom yam.. With Andy, Jun, Sharon and Saw Hui.. They were complaining bout the quality of the food, esp Jun. He ordered pineapple rice and he got fried rice in pineapple.. But I still lob my beef kway tiao no matter wat.. Then went Cold Storage becuz they wana see the new Want Want drink.. lame.. then we parted..
Alright.. Got family probs.. with me Dad... Darn
Lemme tok bout some of my teachers first, in order of seniority, HOD downwards..
Mr Yoonos: Year master. Always very 'concern' about our class attitude. Likes to rub his belly gleefully when he teaches. Gets really annoyed when Raj or I question his teaching method. But he has become more tolerant over the months. Always strolling outside the class when we have flag-raising. Once I was caught 'saluting' the flag and he caught me. Thankfully he juz laugh when he realise how I was saluting. WAIT a min.. IS HE SUPPOSE TO DO THAT? Anyway sometimes he is quite kool. My SS and History teacher, good old chap.
Mrs Goh: Maths teacher. HOD of maths. Her teachings are real powerful! because of her I have stop failing Maths. Good job. She really makes us understand. When she first teach us, we tot she was a tigress. She was, but only to a certain 'clever' class and lazy students. Accepts jokes and makes em. She explains in details that no other teachers in Northland has done before and she evens keep in schedule with the syllabus. Really a wonderful woman, patient and caring. Of course she has her conditions. She DEMANDS attention when she teaches and HOMEWORKS on time. Good thing I'm in the pink category. Hmmm...
Madam Tai: English teacher. HOD of English. Easily the fiercest of all teachers. It took some time before I cud make sure she wun 'kill' me when I joke bout her in class (learnt that in primary skol xP). She doesn't teach, she scolds. Alright, she does teach but whenever she has an opportunity to scold, she wud. Then you can sleep while she scolds the unfortunate guy/gurl usually Ming Dog, Old Sheep or Chinaman. That's if u can somehow blend into the color of your table. Her teachings aren't bad but as I mentioned, she spents more time 'correcting' mistakes.
Thats all my HOD teachers. For the rest, I'll tell more next time.. It's ten, gotta study Chem. Last Major Paper tml!
Exam Topic: POA and Maths paper 2. Lolx.. Jing Long went crazy, he had to take his paper outside classs as he did not tuck in his shirt and was disruptive. Most of the malay guys did not du a thing for POA. Kinda diff cuz I DID NOT STUDY AT ALL. I only went to skol real early this morning to ask Zhen Yang but I tink I'll scrape thru again. Well, finally I'm glad to say that Maths is getting easier. Lolx... Good Mrs Goh, help us understand so much.
Anyways, had lunch at foodcourt. The rest were like eating chicken rice while I ate prawn noodles. Then JH came to join us. He juz sent his girl home. He had no seat. Lolx. All of us had dessert and Raj was eating his ice kachang kosong which cost 1 buck.. why did he eat tt? cuz he dun wana spent his notes. lmao.
Then came home and literally slept in my sweat. It was sooooooooo hot. The bed soak up my sweat I think. Smelly. Alright lar, not that bad. But nowadays my uniform is literally drench in sweat even though I sit under the fan.
Just came back from NP. Went there for fun. Like ask JY to follow ard waste his time. He couldn't study. Lolx. And I dun feel bad? Anyway bought Lays and Pepsi Twist. Gona start studying soon. FAT.
Exams today: History and Maths paper 1.
History was managable, especially since it was on my fav topic-> Hitler and Nazi Germany. As for Maths paper 1, I'm kinda confident I will pass. Didn't had lunch today. Everyone wanted to go home. Xiao Hui asked me to buy the tix for Chloral Festival. SSEOs no discount arhz? then must pay 5 dollars.. very the wat one..
Haven even started revisions for tml paper. POA and Maths paper 2. Was playing GB the whole day. Think I start now. POA difficult siaz. Sianz. Andy was saying something bout remembering the format. Mao had grp study this afternoon at Mac, but there was no reason for me to go. I just cudn concentrate.
Was supposed to help my mum with some stuff but OvErsLepT!!! gr8, so sad huh.. my mum was dissapointed.. stupid alarm clock.. dunno wat happened.. Well, I better get down to work, it's already 846pm.. Darn..
Hmmm... Exams today : Social Studies and Eng Paper 1 and 2. Social kinda screwed up my mind and I completely lost touch with the paper? how well am I going to do for the paper? better pray hard. I did question 5 for paper 1 and the letter was to the Apple company, lame huhz.. anyway, paper 2 passage was kinda difficult but the questions were rather easy. The summary I'm quite confident I will do above average. Hmmm...
After skol, went with Raj, Vic, Andy and Jun Hao who join us ltr. Went to eat at Sakae Sushi but hada wait till 3 cuz all of us wana eat buffet.. Raj was up to his usual stuff.. this time he even vomitted out the seaweed and pounded the handroll becuz he did not want to eat em.. everyone was so disgusted when they saw wat he did.. lmao.. then we began crapping ard desert and everyone was in high spirits.. Sakae getting boring liaoz.. needa find a new haunt for food after skol, so far we have already tried Mac, Sakae, Sakura, Pasta, Seoul Garden, lotsa others, some of which remains favs like Cavana . So guys, wat next?
Tml is History exams.. hope I can do it to the fullest of my potential. I wana top the class!!! and english too xP heyz, it's just my ambition, and of course if I du so it's not becuz of me oni, but becuz God had given me the wisdom and memory to study.. Thank God in advance... =D
ps: Maths paper1 too, must get at least 60%.. jia you!
Woke up early this morn as I had to go for CGM. Aw.. now my eyes are closing.. Anywayz, we had a combined meeting and it kinda drag all the way to nearly 3, so I had to go off first for my choir practice, yes, I'm in church choir. I loved music since I started my first CD 5 yrs ago and it's definitely not gay lor. Rather, it is energetic and kills my mood swings.
Was very touched by the testimonial today. Eg. my CG member, not telling ya, whose mum was mute and deaf through all these years took care of them. I had an immediate respect for her mum. I think all our mums deserve our gr8test love not only today but the rest of the days. To love our mums = blessings and to dishonor them = curse. It's not because of this but because they not only brought us to this world, and nuture us and also sacrifice a gr8 deal for us. I'm not asking you to give up wat you want, but rather to listen to your mum's advise and take it as you deem fit. Just dun scold them or hurt them, they are woman and they deserve their childrens gr8test respect. If you are currently on bad terms with your mum, maybe it's time to 4give and 4get. Many a times we are just too blinded by our selfish desires to care about the woman closest to our hearts. This is a time for us to think back and refelct on wat cud be done to rectify everything that we have done wrong.
Alright. Finished my gr8 Mother's Day Speech. I LOVE YOU MUM !!!!!!!!! THANK GOD CUZ I DUN WANA LOSE YOU EVER!!!! woo...
Today was MT(Chinese) paper 1 and 2. Paper 1 I did the personal letter. PHEW! I wrote wrongly at first but thank God, I discovered my mistake and redo the paper with 5 mins to spare. PHEW! However, paper 2 prove to be challenging. I was handicapped in 'tian xie han zhi' but I guess I did well in 'zhao ju'.
Saw Van Helsing today. With a rather big group of 12. Guys and gurls. Sometimes I dun understand what they are thinking. Some more common sense? I know I was kinda rude today, I was crazy. I dun understand.
Btw, Van Helsing was ok in terms of plot and effects. But I'd give it 3 outta 5 stars because the connection and emotion of characters wasn't up to standard. Pretty standard stuff, much like the predessors, MUMMY and MUUMY RETURNS.
Have you ever wonder why sometimes things happen this way or that? Well, dun wonder, use God as your source, then maybe it will be revealed to you.
If I hate you means I cant love you.
And if I love you how can I hate you?
anyone knows where to get musick for blogs? pls leave a note. thankz. Today's class was kinda slacking the whole day. most of us were trying our best to study chinese. but I didn have the mood. pms? no I dun. I'm a guy. anyways, tml is chinese exams liaoz but I'm targetting for O's, not mid tr. still, I gotta try my best.
I'll be willing to change. If it's juz frens, I've got nothing. that was me, and I was childish at that time. I nv meant to hit him. I dun even remember. but watever it is, i had no malicious intentions. no, if it's frens over self, of course. I understand the freedom, I've lost mine. it's juz dis simple reason why I'll change.
WoW.. I'm in love with blogspot already.. offers me so much accesibility and comfort in managing my blog.
Today was kinda boring.. during english period, Raj was like inserting his diskette which had a broken cover into mam tai laptop.. ok, it's me who did it, but it's his diskette.. so we wasted more than 1 period fixing the prob. Then this IT girl from NgeeAngPoly, i tink, came and fixed it all. lol. And we began dissecting my essay. Now i know how to improve it le, must du better for mid yrs. Mrs Goh was tokin to me as i carried the maths files down. About maths and stuff.. makes me feel more confident.. then finally had remedial... english. groan*
Andy nv come skol today, leave me alone. haha. I tink he bored sittin beside me. Cuz i nv tok to him. Lolx. Always play RS till cant wake up horZ. Good ol Wasinee ask me when Toh [primary skol teacher] baby coming.. aRd june july lar. and Toh ask me help chose a name that combines her husband's and her name. Irene and Ronnie. So i suggested Ironic, she said Irony sounds better. Really arhZ? or maybe winnie the pooh.. eh.. okie.. dun get carried away..
MT exams coming.. Man, i oni studied till 'C' oni... Darn.. and I'm so slpY now.. alright.. use the comp too long liaoz.. me go ZzZ... nitEz
